Gallera 04/12/2013 - dikit ka ng dikit sken bebe! ahahaha

(Space)

How can you suddenly change your daily routine in a snap? How can you not text the most important person in your life? How can you shut your brain from thinking how is she doing right now? How will you know if space is all that she needs? For how long will you wait and how can you be sure that this is not the end?

I tried to call her but her phone is off, and xmpre she will not answer to any of my text. Alam nya kung gano ko kakulit, and this is the first time that I will allow her to think. Bakit? kasi baka in this way maisip nya na mahal nya tlg ko and she can accept my past. We can go on without blaiming each other, kahit may sakit pang matira in the end maiisip nya na mahal nya tlg ko and i'm worth of all the pain and sufferings.

Tears are falling, muka kong gago dito sa office na dapat nagttrabaho ko ng maayos, that's what she wants, kasi xa kaya nya, she can work without thinking of me, pero ako hinde, every case that I handle, every call that I take I'm doing that for her, para makakuha ko ng mataas na score card para may komisyon ako, pag may komisyon ako made-date ko xa, pero ngaun...she wants me to be inspired without inspiration, to go to work thinking that I have to go to work because I have to, gulo ko ba?

She wants me to stop texting her, how can I not text the person that I'm dying to talk to, kahit nga text lang ok na e, kahit na di na xa sumagot ok lang ganon tlg e, mahal ko un, nagkamali ako noon and I have to face this, sana after nito ok na, pero kahit di pa tpos ung karma ko ok lang basta nanjan lang xa.

Since I cannot text her nor talk to her, dito ko nlng sasabihin ung mga lagi kong cnsabi sknya na dko na muna masasabi sknya T_T ..ayan na ang luha di pa man ako nagsstart magsulat..

* Good morning bebelab..pauwi na po ako.. gisthing na yang mahal ko na yan,.ingat ka pagpasok..have a great day, i love you mmmwwuah! :)

* haus na po ako, kain lang then meme nrin ako..gising na kaw, namimiss na kita :)

* tapos na kumain mahal ko, nakahiga na po.. namimiss na kitang katabi, can't wait for Friday,hehe.. idlip po muna ko, ingat ka jan sa ofis.. i love you bebe..

* Lunch na po..kain kna..don't skip meals.. I know you're busy pero wag papalipas and..MAG-CR! hehe.. i love you mmmwwuah! :)

* Pasok na po ako mahal ko..ingat ako.. kaw dn ingat ka paguwi.. i love you so much, mmmwuah! :)

* SM na po ako..bahay kna po ba?

* office na po ako baby, email nlng tau baka mahuli nko ng guard e.. i love you :)

* Good night my princess, sleeptyt.. tulog kna,paggising mo mahal pa rin kita, and ikaw lang.. mahal na mahal po kita..mmmwwuah (kiss sa noo) mmmwwuah (kiss sa nose ) mmmmmwwwwuuuuaaah! (kiss sa lips)

These are not templates, yan ung usual kong mga text sknya but now mukang dko muna sila magagamit,. hay baby..I miss you now and I'll miss you even more.. i'll give you the space that you want but I'll never give up, not now, not ever, I love you too much.. till then baby.. :'(

#18

The closer...

The closer I get to you
The more you'll make me see
By giving me all you've got
Your love has captured me

Over and over again
I try to tell myself that we
Could never be more than friends
And all the while inside
I knew it was real
The way you make me feel

Lying here next to you
Time just seems to fly
Needing you more and more
Let's give love a try

Sweeter than sweeter love grows
And heaven's there for those
Who fool the tricks of time
With the hearts in love they find
True love
In a special way

The closer I get to you
The more you make me see
By giving me all you've got
Your love has captured me

Over and over again
I try to tell myself that we
Could never be more than friends
And all the while inside
I knew it was real
The way you make me feel

The closer I get to you
The more you make me see
By giving you all I've got
Your love has captured me

The closer I get to you
A feeling comes over me
(Me too)
Pulling closer

July 18 2013

How happy I am? UNEXPLAINABLE.
How did it happen? UNEXPECTED.

How much I love her? UNMEASURABLE. 

I don't know where to start..eehhhh! kinikilig pa ko e..arte? haha! It started ng magulo, ng away, ng kalimutan pero ang ending start na pala ng happy ending.

Life will do a lot of funny and weird things for you to be together if you're really meant to be. Parang kame, (cge Wine ipilit mo, haha!) who would have thought na magiging kame ulet? Ako? hahaha..Well, somehow oo pero kala ko hanggang panaginip lang un e. Never crossed my mind that one day I'll wake up beside her, I'll be kissing her again, I can hear her say I love you to me and I can call her mine again. Akalain mo un oh, si Future e ngaun Present na, sabagay I can still call her my Future db?

This page is for her and most of the blogs here are for her, I will never get tired of typing and letting the whole world know about our story, our ups and downs, lambingan and bangayan. This webpage does not have any character limit,sana kame rin, walang katapusang kwento, di pala sana, I'll make sure na wala ng ending to, I claim it! whhoooh! ay sorry hyper lang, haha!

Thank you Lord for trusting me with Your daughter again, and as promised, i'll take care of her, be there as long as she needs me and love her with all that I am.

To my baby.. eehh! landi nyeta! hahaha.. I can't remember when was the last time I felt this happy, knowing that someone loves me for being me. I've been very vocal to you, minsan nga feeling ko sobra na e, but still I want to let you know that I love you, so much and how lucky I am to be loved by you. Thank you for the chance, habang buhay kong utang na loob ata to e, hehe..it's ok if it means i'll be spending my lifetime with you. I love you baby, enjoy each moment with me :) (char! yan dpat sabihin mo sken, LOL)

all about her

I love it when I kiss your forehead

I love the sudden and fast holding hands

I love how you melt me just by looking

I love the long talks

I love how you laugh loud

I love how you touches my face

I love the way you flip your hair

I love how you smell.

I love the tight hugs

I love you when you're wearing dress

I love you when you're wearing shorts.

I love it when you're simple but I love it more when you're fashionable.

I love how you make me blush.

I love when you slap me in the face.

I love it when you bite my arm, my hands and my lips (LOL)

I love the sleepless sleep overs.

I love it when you sing.

I love it when you talk while sleeping.

I love your songs.

I love it when you email me while i'm at work

I love it when you call me baby, be, mahal, bebe love, bebe ko, baby ko, mahal ko

I like it when you miss me.   

I love your munggo and nachos.

I love the unplanned met-ups 

I love it when you snore

I love it when you grab my hand for me to hug you

I love your wet hands and feet

I love Saturday mornings

I love your unexpected i love yous

Blogs / poems / words are not enough to tell you all the things that I love about you, but I'll try my best to let you know, is lifetime enough time for me to do that? 

I LOVE YOU :)

My husband's lover - Suspended?!

CBCP asked GMA 7 to suspend My husband's lover because of immorality. This is the first news that I got pagpasok ko ng office. Seriously?! ganon ba sila kaaffected? (and why is that? hehe)

Im not a big fan but I support the soap. I find it unique, an escape from all the drama, slavery, iyakan, sampalan, ung mga kontrabidang namatay na tpos mbubuhay ulet, ung ilang buwan / taon bago makita ung hinahanap ng diary na nasa ibabaw lang pala ng TV, at higit sa lahat, and love story na mayaman si boy at mahirap c girl or vice versa.

This is just my point of view:

> Sensitive scene? nasaan?! sensitive nba ngaun ang paghahawak ng kamay at pagtititigan?
> As far as I can remember, pinilit naman ni Vincent ( Tom ) na magbago,nag-asawa xa and pinilit nyang kalimutan c Eric (Dennis)  pero mahal nya talaga e, is that the meaning of true love? ung kahit di mo nakikita, nakakasama minamahal mo pa rin?
> Pano nila nalaman na ganon ung mga eksena dun? pinapanood din nila? akalain mong may time pa silang gawin un? why can't they do their other jobs?
> Looking at the bright side of the story, pwdeng ung ibang taong nakakapanood neto is magkaron na ng hint kung gano kahirap maging katulad nila, na mahirap kalabanin ung mga taong nakapaligid sa kanila, pamilya nila at higit sa lahat mahirap kalabanin ang sarili sa totoong nararamdaman.
> Lastly, this is reality, nangyayari talaga to sa totoong buhay, di ba sila aware o nagmamaang maangan sila?

I know we are entitled for our own opinion and I'm not saying this kc homosexual din ako but suspending a soap na marameng may gusto and napakataas ng rating? that's being selfish. We have our own minds to know kung anong tama sa mali, di kayo nagkulang napaalala sa'men  and if gayahin namen un, it's our choice.

My Lego House

I'm gonna pick up the pieces,
And build a Lego house
If things go wrong we can knock it down

My three words have two meanings,
There's one thing on my mind
It's all for you

And it's dark in a cold December, but I've got you to keep me warm

If you're broken I will mend you and I'll keep you sheltered from the storm that's raging on now.

I'm out of touch, I'm out of love
I'll pick you up when you're getting down

And out of all these things I've done I think I love you better now

I'm out of sight, I'm out of mind

I'll do it all for you in timeAnd out of all these things I've done I think I love you better now

I'm gonna paint you by numbers
And colour you in
If things go right we can frame it and put you on a wall

And it's so hard to say it but I've been here before
Now I'll surrender up my heart

And swap it for yours

Don't hold me down

I think my braces are breaking, and it's more th an I can take.

And it's dark in a cold December, but I've got you to keep me warm

If you're broken I will mend you and I'll keep you sheltered from the storm that's raging on now

I'm out of touch, I'm out of love
I'll pick you up when you're getting down

And out of all these things I've done I think I love you better now

I'm out of sight, I'm out of mind
I'll do it all for you in time

And out of all these things I've done I think I love you better now

I'm out of touch, I'm out of love
I'll pick you up when you're getting down

And out of all these things I've done

 I will love you better now.

***GOOD MORNING BABY KO!!! have a great day ahead..
if only I can attatch music here ginawa ko na, hehe.. Ingat ka pagpasok.. mmmwwwuuah!***

Kay sarap ng Buhay

You can't have the best of both worlds? well.. I have both (sa ngaun, haha) I have a job and I have her ( inangkin na agad?haha)

I go to work at 9pm, log - in.. wait ng tawag.. 10mins.. 20mins... 30mins... 40min??!!! madalas lagpas pa..
hikab, kusot mata, nakaw ng idlip, browse, mangungulit ng katabi, email sknya, basa ng kung ano ano sa net, break, after break, hikab, kusot mata, nakaw ng idlip, browse, mangungulit ng katabi, email sknya, basa ng kung ano ano sa net, lunch, after lunch hikab, kusot mata, nakaw ng idlip, browse, mangungulit ng katabi, email sknya, basa ng kung ano ano sa net - ganyan ng ganyan araw-araw, iba iba nga lang ung sequence pero ganon pa rin ung kakalabasan, petiks ung trabaho.

Akalain mong may trabahong ganito pala?.. sumasahod naman ako ng maayos, above expected pa nga e, kc kung may tawag man tatagal lang un ng mga limang minuto, mas matagal pa ung hinintay mo kesa sa mismong tawag.

RD. The most awaited days, sobrang bagal ng Friday shift dahil sa RD na the next day. Makikita ko na si Future, makakasama, makakalambingan, makakakwentuhan.

Monday night. Same thing. Papasok at ichachalenge ang sarili para manatiling gising sa office ng 9 na oras, LOL.

Kahit ganito ung trabaho ko, minsan walang challenge, salamat Bro at binigay mo sken to, I don't deserve this pero sobrang thank you. Isa nlng hiling ko, ibalik Nyo na po xa sken ng buo after that I can trully say na.... kay sarap talaga ng buhay :)

Somehow complete idiot's guide para makalibre

Mahirap na ang buhay ngaun kaya mas ok sana kung may manglilibre sau dba? so here are some tips that might help you save money.

1. Sa inuman: Uminom ng marame or umarteng lasing na pag oras na ng bayaran. Ung tipong nakayuko kna sa table at di na makausap ng matino para dka masingil.

2. Sa grocery: Kahit ikaw ang nag-aya na may bilin, pagdating sa counter, magkunyaring naiihi, tagalan hanggat maaari at siguraduhing malapit na sa bayaran ang kasama upang maging matagumpay ang balak, para sa pagbabalik nabayran na ang nsabing produkto.

3. Sa inuman part 2: Pag malapit na ang bayaran, awayin ang jowa at magkunwaring nagagalit, maghagis ng 100 o mas mababang halaga kahit naka-3ng bote ka ng red horse, sundan ito na mabilis na pagalis.

4. Sa Kainan (specifically drive-thru) - Pumili ng pagkaing mas masarap kainin pag mainit gaya ng French fries. Alukin ang kasamang kumain sa ganitong lugar pero siguraduhing gabi ito gagawin, bakit? dahil kung gabi na maaaring antukin at makatulog ang kasama ngunit siguraduhing nakakuha na ng pera bago bumili ng pagkain. Siguraduhin din na nakatulog na ang kasama pagkabili, dali daling kumain at pagkagising ng kasama at tinanong kung nasaan na ang pagkain maaring sabihin ito "kinain ko na, di un masarap pag malamig na e"

5. Isa rin sa magandang paraan ay ang panliligaw kapag malapit na ang iyong kaarawan, may regalo ka na mas malaki pa ung chansa na sagutin ka nya.

6. Pumili ng maperang jowa o jojowain, pano ka nga naman malilibre kung wala ring pera ang kasama mo, pero palabasin na may pera ka rin gaya ng pagpapakitang may kotse ka at galing sa respetadong skwelahan. Sa ganitong paraan makukuha mo ang tiwala nya at di nya iisiping pineperahan mo lang sya kahit un naman talaga ung totoo.

Hindi madaling gawin ang lahat ng ito, kailangan ng matinding tapang at makapal na pagmumuka upang magtagumpay sa ganitong layunin. Kapag naisagawa ang lahat ng yan, isa lang msasabi ko sau "BIGYAN YAN NG JACKET!!!" lol

another day so pwede ko na ulet sabihin :)

Sweet but hot, dirty but sexy, fab but classy, hay..I can't find the right words to describe her. I'm not saying na pangit xa noon, but men! this is sooo different, sobrang ganda na nya ngaun.

Those brown eyes, kissable lips and most of all sexy hair.. Gosh! She smells great. Everytime na inaayos nya ung buhok nya all I can say to myself is "hayyyyyy" kaya lagi nyang tinatanong sken kung anong problema ko, "do you really wanna know what my problem is?..ang ganda mo e" ..pero as usual ang isasagot lang nya sken is "weh?" coz everytime I say that she thinks na binobola ko lang xa kaya madalas buntong hininga nlang nagagawa ko or kung sa sobrang panlalata e npapatulala nlng ako sknya.

If only makita nya kung anong nakikita ko ginawa ko na, in that way alam kong maiintindihan na nya ko kung bakit head over heels ako sknya ngaun. "tanga ka e, pinakawalan mo noon, maglaway ka ngaun" parang may nagmomonologue sa isip ko, haha! Bilog nga talaga mundo, minsan nasa taas, minsan nasa ilalim pero ngaun bumabaliktad mundo ko everytime our eyes meet. "Anak ng bakang bakla talaga oh, ksama ba to sa test? kasi kung gnyan ka ng ganyan, babagsak tlg ko neto, babagsak sau" hahahahaha!

This is just one of the reasons why I love her, but there's a lot more to her than just beautiful face. Everytime I look at her lips, her hair, her eyes, everytime I smell her sweet scent.. I want to say it, I want to say how much I love her, how much I want to kiss her, to hug her...then........and then......it hits me.... hindi ka nga pala sken..nakalimutan ko T_T

Song of the day or should I say months?

Nand'yan ka na naman
Tinutukso-tukso ang aking puso
Ilang ulit na bang
Iniiwasan ka di na natuto
Sulyap ng 'yong mata
Laging nadarama kahit malayo, ooh
Nahihirapan na
Lalapit-lapit pa di na natuto
Isang ngiti mo lang
At ako'y napapaamo
Yakapin mong minsan
Ay muling magbabalik sa'yo
Na walang kalaban-laban
Ang puso ko'y tanging iyo lamang

O eto na naman
Laging nananabik ang aking puso,
Muling bumabalik
Sa 'yong mga halik
Di na natuto

Isang ngiti mo lang
At ako'y napapaamo
Yakapin mong minsan
Ay muling magbabalik sa'yo
Na walang kalaban-laban
Ang puso ko'y tanging iyo lamang

Isang ngiti mo lang
At ako'y napapaamo
Yakapin mong minsan
Ay muling magbabalik sa'yo
Na walang kalaban-laban
Ang puso ko'y tanging iyo lamang
Ang puso ko'y tanging iyo lamang..

:D

Good morning gorgeous!

uuuyyyy..smile na yan, hehe <------ignore this line if not applicable, LOL
ganda mo nnman siguro ngaun kc aga mo natulog kagabi e and if naka-dress ka, hay.. how I wish I can see you..

Don't skip meals and don't forget na tumayo ng 15mins..... or more, hehe

Enjoy your day!

**don't worry di pa to ung pambawi ko,hehe**

P.S. (Pahabol na Story, hahaha!)
Nung nagsesearch ako ng pics using Good Morning sa google, karamihan mga ganitong pics lumabas..

hmmm.. Bakit kaya? Sa tingin mo?
nyahahahahahaha!

half alive

It's four AM, I'm waking up to your perfume 
Don't get up, I'll get through on my own 
I don't know if I'm home 
Or if I lost the way into your room 
I'm spiraling into my doom 
I'm feeling half alive but I know one day 
You and I will be free, 

To live and die by our own rules, 
Free.. 
Despite the fact that men are fools. 

I'm almost alive, and I need you to try 
And save me. 
It's okay that we're dying, 
But I need to survive tonight, tonight. 

Well excuse me while I get killed softly, 
Heart slows down and I can hardly tell you I'm okay 
At least 'til yesterday, 
You know you got me off my highest guard, 
Believe me when I say it's hard. 

And you touch my hand ever so slightly 
And the deadly look she cast upon me 
I won't regret, I won't regret.

And I was trying to disappear, 
But you got me wrapped around you 
I can hardly breathe without you 
I was trying to disappear 
But I got lost in your eyes now, 
You brought me down to size now.

I am sorry T_T

Sorry seems to be the hardest word, one of the most used word and one of the most abused, the first step for this word is accepting the fact that you did something wrong, so here it goes;

I'm sorry for hurting you.

I'm sorry for the tears you wasted for me

I'm sorry for not giving time 

I'm sorry that you learned to smoke and drink too much because of me.

I'm sorry for the year that you thought we are ok.

I'm sorry for wasting two years of your life with me

I'm sorry for not giving you gifts.

I'm sorry that Vodka lost her father.

I'm sorry that you almost died

I'm sorry for the times that you can't work

I'm sorry for replacing you.

I'm sorry for the text that I wasn't able to answer.

I'm sorry for the calls that I was the first to hang up.

I'm sorry for my family specially my mother.

I'm sorry for lying for me to go out.

I'm sorry that you trusted me.

I'm sorry for not loving you that much before.

I'm sorry for the house that was not built.

I'm sorry for the savings that I promised.

I'm sorry for the promise that I'll never leave you.

I'm sorry for Wave.

I'm sorry for our wedding.

I'm sorry for the sleepless nights.

I'm sorry that you have to lie for you to be with me.

I'm sorry for not being there when you needed me the most.

I'm sorry for the stress.

I'm sorry for not holding your hand.

I'm sorry if you did not enjoy EK because of me.

I'm sorry for not surprising you.

I'm sorry for still thinking of you

I'm sorry for still hoping we can be together again.

and I'm sorry that I still love you.

I know that giving you more time means a big chance of losing you, but if this is all it takes for you to be whole again, I'll be waiting. I can't promise that you can forget all the bad things that happened to us, all I can promise is I'll be spending my whole life showing how sorry I am. 

"I LOVE YOU, noon, ngayon pati na rin ung in between"

if only

"If only I can turn back time." gasgas na to e pero after 25 years of existence ngaun ko lang ata to maiintindihan ng sobra.

"Digital ang karma". Isa pa to, alam ko pero ngaun lang nya ko sinapak.

She loves me (weh?haha), I love her more but she's not yet ready, yan ang peg namen ngaun. Mahirap na masaya, masakit pero worth it, nkakapraning pero nakakaexcite, nkaka-stress pero nkaka-in-love, at kung ano ano pang description, dko man maexplain,isa lang ang alam ko..naguguluhan pa xa..

After all the mistakes that I did before, I can't blame her for being like this, mas matigas na ata xa ngaun sa bato e, mas mahirap i-please, ung tipong di na uubra ung pagpapa-cute. Kung date e bossy xa ngaun mala-hitler na, marame ng nagbago sknya aside sa fact na mas gumanda xa ngaun e in terms of ugali marame na tlg but one thing remains and remained for how many years...i'm still in love with her.

I can't say na masaya ko na ganito kame, oo masaya but I know mas sasaya pa ko kung magiging kame ulet, I need to prove something and I know time is the best gift that I can give her for now. I learn to appreciate small things because of this, wirdo man pero napapangiti na ko everytime she texts me with "po" or "opo" to it, when she replies to my texts, when she talks to me over the phone, when she answers my pm, ung pagbangga ng kamay ko sa kamay nya, ung maamoy ko xa, ung pagpatong ng kamay nya sa hita ko, paghiga nya sa balikat ko, ultimo ung pagtingin nya sken, ung mga ganon na date e normal lang para sken.

Ngaun ko lang narealize kung ano ung pinakawalan ko, kung pano ko sinaktan ung taong minahal ako ng abot langit, ngaun ko nararamdaman na maghabol at higit sa lahat ngaun ko nararamdaman ung sakit ng ginawa ko sknya, but I know kulang pa to, sobrang kulang pa..

Umabot man ng taon or ilang buwan or linggo or kahit sagutin mo man ako ngaun o bukas, eto lang msasabi ko sau, "Mahal kita, sobrang mahal kita, di na kita pakakawalan pa and I will marry you" .. if only you will give me this last chance :'(

I missed you

I missed your smile.
I missed your smell.
The way you look at me
and the way you look 
when you're not looking.

I missed how we talk for hours
thinking that the whole world is ours.
I missed how you hug me
and the kiss that excites me.

This might be the last or the start
but all I know is we still have the spark
I really missed how you dance
also your five second glance.

We might just be missing other 
or we still have feelings for one another
but I don't want this to stop
and never will I give up.

missed is in past and so did us 
MISSED because with the right time
where everything doesn't matter anymore
we will be forever together   
and you will never walk this in this life alone.