Before ang alam ko dapat marame kang friends para masabi mong mabuti kang tao, the more the manier (tama ba spell?) ang peg, na I can live without friends as long as I have my gf with me, pero mali pala, maling mali.
I'm having a lot of emotions right now, dapat ba akong maging masaya because naprove ko ng malala na my best friend is the best or malulungkot ako kc I lost a friend. Kahit siguro kasi ganito ung nangyare smen, minahal ko naman xa ng bahagya as a friend,hay.. since I'm not good with saying my emotion personally ganito nlng, I'll write a letter for you tol, tribute ba, char! hahaha!
To my best friend,
Lagi mo nga sinasabi sken na magkaibigan tau since fetus tau, and I'm so proud of that knowing na may isang taong pinagtyagaan ako ng ilang taon, maganda man or panget ung nangyayare sten. I can't thank you enough sa pagtanggap sken, kahit ano pa maging gender ko, haha! Salamat kc di mko jinudge and alam kong hindi mo un magagawa sken (nirereverse lang kita pre,joke lang haha) Pero sobrang tiwala ko sau na never mkong ilalaglag and ngaun ung mga panahon na napatunayan kong totoo nga ung mga hinala ko sau (ang panget ng hinala na word,haha) Salamat sa mga panahong nakikinig ka lang sken na minsan e nakakainis na kc hindi mko pinapanigan, pero naiisip ko naman in the end na tama ka rin naman. You've seen the worst in me nrin ata e, na sana last na un no? I'm comfortable na ipakita un kay gf pero not with you kc ayaw kong bumaba tingin mo sken (kung mataas man,haha) but after that moment, parang walang nangyare, you're still the same best friend that I knew since high school days.
I'm so happy and proud to be one of your best friends, now I totally understand why everyone loves you and wants to be close to you, pero sorry sila coz I have the priviledge to be at your side most of the time and to witness your ups and downs.
Looking forward for more years with you pre and don't worry mahal kita, di lang halata kc brutal ako pero etong bruskong bakla na to ang never na manlalaglag sau.
Cheers!
Love,
Your brother from another mother :)
We all know that there are some moments that you'll tell yourself "sana di ko na lang pala sinabi un" well, few days ago I have said that over and over again in my head, why? because if I didn't say it maybe I won't be hurt, maybe I saved my eyes from swelling from too much crying (haha!) maybe I didn't question how am I doing as her partner. But everything has been said and done, actually, not everything because I won't be writing this blog if I said everything na,hehe.
I wasn't able to tell you how sorry I am from all the burden and stress that I caused you. I'm so sorry for the times that I fail to show my love to you. I'm sorry for not giving my best or for thinking that I gave my best pero di pa pala. I can list down all the things that I'm sorry for but I know you'll get bored because it might took me days for me to finish,hehe.
Enough of the drama Wine!haha! why I also write this blog is for me to tell you some things na too much cheesy sbhin sa personal. You know that feeling na kahit ikaw nababaduyan ka sa sarili mo pero you want to say it because it's true? that's why ang title ng blog page ko is OUTLET because you how madaldal I am but some things are better if you'll read it (sana tama aq sa feeling ko na un,haha)
I love you! Anong korni and kakaiba jan? ewan ko,haha! because everytime I say or tell you that it has different purpose, gulo ba? cge ganito xa..may time na I said I love you because I want to make you kilig (yan nnman yang kilig na yan e ahahaha) or sometime I want to make myself kilig (nakakainis ung taglish ko,amf!)
I'm you're #2 fan, bakit number 2 lang? coz your family is your number 1,hehe. I know you're going through some tough time right now but what I really adore you is how strong you are in handling your emotion, how can you do that? Crying just once then that's it? How many times did I cry for the same reason? grabe! or is it just me kc mahina ako,hehe. Well, I admire you so much. Walang halong kachorvahan jan coz I won't be getting anything if I'll praise you ryt?
Ok for the final and mejo mabigat na statement,hehe. Sana I'm just paranoid and again I know you're going through something lang (sana..) Why am I now unsure of myself? why am I still sad deep inside? Why do I feel like I'm still not worth it? hay.. I know it's my fault and I just hope this feeling will go away.
Whatever we're facing right now is just temporary. No question how much I love you baby, no question about how I feel whenever you hold my hand and no question how my face lights up each time you're around. I'll just be here for you no matter what, gasgas na yan but I know that's what you need e,hehe. And I will not tell you that I wrote a blog for you, bakit? kc gusto ko lang. char! hahaha! basta if you'll see this I know stronger na tau and mas mayaman na tau,haha! I love you my one and forever princess :)
