#friendship

Before ang alam ko dapat marame kang friends para masabi mong mabuti kang tao, the more the manier (tama ba spell?) ang peg, na I can live without friends as long as I have my gf with me, pero mali pala, maling mali.

I'm having a lot of emotions right now, dapat ba akong maging masaya because naprove ko ng malala na my best friend is the best or malulungkot ako kc I lost a friend. Kahit siguro kasi ganito ung nangyare smen, minahal ko naman xa ng bahagya as a friend,hay.. since I'm not good with saying my emotion personally ganito nlng, I'll write a letter for you tol, tribute ba, char! hahaha!

To my best friend,

Lagi mo nga sinasabi sken na magkaibigan tau since fetus tau, and I'm so proud of that knowing na may isang taong pinagtyagaan ako ng ilang taon, maganda man or panget ung nangyayare sten. I can't thank you enough sa pagtanggap sken, kahit ano pa maging gender ko, haha! Salamat kc di mko jinudge and alam kong hindi mo un magagawa sken (nirereverse lang kita pre,joke lang haha) Pero sobrang tiwala ko sau na never mkong ilalaglag and ngaun ung mga panahon na napatunayan kong totoo nga ung mga hinala ko sau (ang panget ng hinala na word,haha) Salamat sa mga panahong nakikinig ka lang sken na minsan e nakakainis na kc hindi mko pinapanigan, pero naiisip ko naman in the end na tama ka rin naman. You've seen the worst in me nrin ata e, na sana last na un no? I'm comfortable na ipakita un kay gf pero not with you kc ayaw kong bumaba tingin mo sken (kung mataas man,haha) but after that moment, parang walang nangyare, you're still the same best friend that I knew since high school days.

I'm so happy and proud to be one of your best friends, now I totally understand why everyone loves you and wants to be close to you, pero sorry sila coz I have the priviledge to be at your side most of the time and to witness your ups and downs.

Looking forward for more years with you pre and don't worry mahal kita, di lang halata kc brutal ako pero etong bruskong bakla na to ang never na manlalaglag sau.

Cheers!

Love,
Your brother from another mother :)

Late post

We all know that there are some moments that you'll tell yourself "sana di ko na lang pala sinabi un" well, few days ago I have said that over and over again in my head, why? because if I didn't say it maybe I won't be hurt, maybe I saved my eyes from swelling from too much crying (haha!) maybe I didn't question how am I doing as her partner. But everything has been said and done, actually, not everything because I won't be writing this blog if I said everything na,hehe.

I wasn't able to tell you how sorry I am from all the burden and stress that I caused you. I'm so sorry for the times that I fail to show my love to you. I'm sorry for not giving my best or for thinking that I gave my best pero di pa pala. I can list down all the things that I'm sorry for but I know you'll get bored because it might took me days for me to finish,hehe.

Enough of the drama Wine!haha! why I also write this blog is for me to tell you some things na too much cheesy sbhin sa personal. You know that feeling na kahit ikaw nababaduyan ka sa sarili mo pero you want to say it because it's true? that's why ang title ng blog page ko is OUTLET because you how madaldal I am but some things are better if you'll read it (sana tama aq sa feeling ko na un,haha)

I love you! Anong korni and kakaiba jan? ewan ko,haha! because everytime I say or tell you that it has different purpose, gulo ba? cge ganito xa..may time na I said I love you because I want to make you kilig (yan nnman yang kilig na yan e ahahaha) or sometime I want to make myself kilig (nakakainis ung taglish ko,amf!) 

I'm you're #2 fan, bakit number 2 lang? coz your family is your number 1,hehe. I know you're going through some tough time right now but what I really adore you is how strong you are in handling your emotion, how can you do that? Crying just once then that's it? How many times did I cry for the same reason? grabe! or is it just me kc mahina ako,hehe. Well, I admire you so much. Walang halong kachorvahan jan coz I won't be getting anything if I'll praise you ryt?

Ok for the final and mejo mabigat na statement,hehe. Sana I'm just paranoid and again I know you're going through something lang (sana..) Why am I now unsure of myself? why am I still sad deep inside? Why do I feel like I'm still not worth it? hay.. I know it's my fault and I just hope this feeling will go away. 

Whatever we're facing right now is just temporary. No question how much I love you baby, no question about how I feel whenever you hold my hand and no question how my face lights up each time you're around. I'll just be here for you no matter what, gasgas na yan but I know that's what you need e,hehe. And I will not tell you that I wrote a blog for you, bakit? kc gusto ko lang. char! hahaha! basta if you'll see this I know stronger na tau and mas mayaman na tau,haha! I love you my one and forever princess :)

Happy Valentine's day :'(

Siguro nga I'm not really good with surprises, it's either nabubuking, nadudulas ako or di nagiging masaya.. Valentine's nanaman, and pag Valentine's dapat may gift,dapat may surprise kasi sabi nga nila kailangan mong mapasaya si girlfriend..Mali! haha! I want to do this coz I'm happy doing this, I'm happy seeing her happy, pero mukang sablay nnman..

What's my plan? Sunday night, before my shift, I'll look for candles sa glorietta, mga tea light candles lang naman, then bath bomb sa Lush (eto ung ball na ilulublob mo sa tub tapos magiging mabango ung water and nakakamoisturized xa ng skin, I chose lavender kc gusto nya ung amoy nun, mas nkakatulog daw xa ng masarap)

Monday morning, before kame magkita pupunta ko ng Dangua to buy petals and malaysian mums, the problem is pano ko matatago sknya un e sa bahay xa magstay before pumunta sa concert ni Avril??! Siguro papabalot ko lng sa paper bag. Sabi nya mga 6pm daw kailangan nandun na kame so ang gagawin ko is pag nasa Cubao na kame iiwan ko muna xa saglit para magcheck in sa Eurotel Cubao which is pinakamalapit na hotel na may bath tub. Then we'll watch the concert :)

After concert, we can have dinner muna or we can go directly sa hotel.

The surprise, plano ko umarteng natatae nko para ako mauna sa cr, then pag nasa loob nko tska ko na iseset-up ung gagawin ko :D

Set-up: May mga candles sa gilid, the mixed colors ng petals ung nakakalat sa floor and sa tub, may white,red, pink and hopefully may orange, tpos may mga malaysian mums na lumulutang sa tubig ng tub.

Kunyare sasakit ung tyan ko ng sobra then I'll ask her to go inside ng CR, syempre pagkapasok nya makikita na nya.. TADA!!!

Oooppss.. Now back to reality...mangyayare pa lang lahat ng to and sana maging ok lahat, di na daw xa excited and naiiyak ako,kasalanan ko to e, maxado nnman akong nagpasabik, sana matuwa xa sa gagawin ko kahit konti, kahit konti lang..

Happy Valentine's, Happy monthsary and I love you baby.. T_T

Gallera 04/12/2013 - dikit ka ng dikit sken bebe! ahahaha

(Space)

How can you suddenly change your daily routine in a snap? How can you not text the most important person in your life? How can you shut your brain from thinking how is she doing right now? How will you know if space is all that she needs? For how long will you wait and how can you be sure that this is not the end?

I tried to call her but her phone is off, and xmpre she will not answer to any of my text. Alam nya kung gano ko kakulit, and this is the first time that I will allow her to think. Bakit? kasi baka in this way maisip nya na mahal nya tlg ko and she can accept my past. We can go on without blaiming each other, kahit may sakit pang matira in the end maiisip nya na mahal nya tlg ko and i'm worth of all the pain and sufferings.

Tears are falling, muka kong gago dito sa office na dapat nagttrabaho ko ng maayos, that's what she wants, kasi xa kaya nya, she can work without thinking of me, pero ako hinde, every case that I handle, every call that I take I'm doing that for her, para makakuha ko ng mataas na score card para may komisyon ako, pag may komisyon ako made-date ko xa, pero ngaun...she wants me to be inspired without inspiration, to go to work thinking that I have to go to work because I have to, gulo ko ba?

She wants me to stop texting her, how can I not text the person that I'm dying to talk to, kahit nga text lang ok na e, kahit na di na xa sumagot ok lang ganon tlg e, mahal ko un, nagkamali ako noon and I have to face this, sana after nito ok na, pero kahit di pa tpos ung karma ko ok lang basta nanjan lang xa.

Since I cannot text her nor talk to her, dito ko nlng sasabihin ung mga lagi kong cnsabi sknya na dko na muna masasabi sknya T_T ..ayan na ang luha di pa man ako nagsstart magsulat..

* Good morning bebelab..pauwi na po ako.. gisthing na yang mahal ko na yan,.ingat ka pagpasok..have a great day, i love you mmmwwuah! :)

* haus na po ako, kain lang then meme nrin ako..gising na kaw, namimiss na kita :)

* tapos na kumain mahal ko, nakahiga na po.. namimiss na kitang katabi, can't wait for Friday,hehe.. idlip po muna ko, ingat ka jan sa ofis.. i love you bebe..

* Lunch na po..kain kna..don't skip meals.. I know you're busy pero wag papalipas and..MAG-CR! hehe.. i love you mmmwwuah! :)

* Pasok na po ako mahal ko..ingat ako.. kaw dn ingat ka paguwi.. i love you so much, mmmwuah! :)

* SM na po ako..bahay kna po ba?

* office na po ako baby, email nlng tau baka mahuli nko ng guard e.. i love you :)

* Good night my princess, sleeptyt.. tulog kna,paggising mo mahal pa rin kita, and ikaw lang.. mahal na mahal po kita..mmmwwuah (kiss sa noo) mmmwwuah (kiss sa nose ) mmmmmwwwwuuuuaaah! (kiss sa lips)

These are not templates, yan ung usual kong mga text sknya but now mukang dko muna sila magagamit,. hay baby..I miss you now and I'll miss you even more.. i'll give you the space that you want but I'll never give up, not now, not ever, I love you too much.. till then baby.. :'(

#18

The closer...

The closer I get to you
The more you'll make me see
By giving me all you've got
Your love has captured me

Over and over again
I try to tell myself that we
Could never be more than friends
And all the while inside
I knew it was real
The way you make me feel

Lying here next to you
Time just seems to fly
Needing you more and more
Let's give love a try

Sweeter than sweeter love grows
And heaven's there for those
Who fool the tricks of time
With the hearts in love they find
True love
In a special way

The closer I get to you
The more you make me see
By giving me all you've got
Your love has captured me

Over and over again
I try to tell myself that we
Could never be more than friends
And all the while inside
I knew it was real
The way you make me feel

The closer I get to you
The more you make me see
By giving you all I've got
Your love has captured me

The closer I get to you
A feeling comes over me
(Me too)
Pulling closer

July 18 2013

How happy I am? UNEXPLAINABLE.
How did it happen? UNEXPECTED.

How much I love her? UNMEASURABLE. 

I don't know where to start..eehhhh! kinikilig pa ko e..arte? haha! It started ng magulo, ng away, ng kalimutan pero ang ending start na pala ng happy ending.

Life will do a lot of funny and weird things for you to be together if you're really meant to be. Parang kame, (cge Wine ipilit mo, haha!) who would have thought na magiging kame ulet? Ako? hahaha..Well, somehow oo pero kala ko hanggang panaginip lang un e. Never crossed my mind that one day I'll wake up beside her, I'll be kissing her again, I can hear her say I love you to me and I can call her mine again. Akalain mo un oh, si Future e ngaun Present na, sabagay I can still call her my Future db?

This page is for her and most of the blogs here are for her, I will never get tired of typing and letting the whole world know about our story, our ups and downs, lambingan and bangayan. This webpage does not have any character limit,sana kame rin, walang katapusang kwento, di pala sana, I'll make sure na wala ng ending to, I claim it! whhoooh! ay sorry hyper lang, haha!

Thank you Lord for trusting me with Your daughter again, and as promised, i'll take care of her, be there as long as she needs me and love her with all that I am.

To my baby.. eehh! landi nyeta! hahaha.. I can't remember when was the last time I felt this happy, knowing that someone loves me for being me. I've been very vocal to you, minsan nga feeling ko sobra na e, but still I want to let you know that I love you, so much and how lucky I am to be loved by you. Thank you for the chance, habang buhay kong utang na loob ata to e, hehe..it's ok if it means i'll be spending my lifetime with you. I love you baby, enjoy each moment with me :) (char! yan dpat sabihin mo sken, LOL)